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Photoshoot! Saturday, June 8, 2013 | 3 peterpan(s) To be honest, I didnt really have much photoshoot experiences. From what I could remember to date, its like no more than 5. And this first casual photoshoot came with real great surprise for me. I got a private message from this person called CJ Tay, and he asked me to do a photoshoot after seeing my trailer on the final 1. At first you know... the wary me was like, is this for real? Cause I never thought I would get spotted for a photoshoot, i am never involved in this type of thing. But he was very professional about it, he even showed me his flickr album. (And its here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/cjtay ) And when I saw his photos I was CAPTIVATED. It was very intense, I esp loved those expressions on the models.... after that I just thought I got lucky yeah...but I felt kinda sad for him cause I know he's going to get a noob shit who cant pose for nuts to do a photoshoot for him... I warned him in advance and I told him that I cant pose and I have very little experience. But he said it was okay...so i agreed and I thought....he better not regret it. :p I brought my "very helpful sis" ( who didnt help much in the end) along to be my assistant cause we were going outside together later. The shoot was at this very tranquil and artistic place called ann siang hill where they had all those old shop houses and old bridges and walkway which makes the photos appear very authentic.
The photographer turned out to be a really nice person. He is taking photography as pure interest and it really inspires me how someone can persevere on a hobby for so many years where sometimes it might mean having to spend much money or discipline to maintain them. So I thought... even if I am working in some corporate firms next time... I shall not give up on singing and acting. jeah! So the next thing I am going to show would be photos and photos!  And I think he really slowly realises that I am a noob cause he had to give me word for word instructions like" tilt your head 10 degrees, chin forward, look forward, tidy your hair"..and comments like.."this is a tourist shot, haha." So I followed dutifully but I really cant help much but to try my very best to give him my most intense look EVER.   And I am really really amazed by the results of the photos. It was like so beautifully shot and I couldnt ask for more. It was like for the first time I could own these pretty shots of mine instead of trying to fiddle on those stupid damn angle which I never get it correct when i try to camwhore. And as what I have said, I just joined instagram and all those filter things was like a pain in the ass and its really time consuming. In simple words: I struck the 4D first prize for that day. :)     Looking at my photos i realised that I actually have this vampire teeth thing instead of straight teeth. I am pretty neutral to having those teeth, sometimes I think they are unique but sometimes I think they made my smile appears weird. But I heard that many japanese ladies are going through procedures to have this vampire teeth called "yaeba" because they think its cute... seriously?! Now here's some photo with my hair let down :   We tried to do some challenging shots like those cool dreamy pouty lips kind we see on those fashion magazines and here are my shots for it. nice try maybe. lol.     
Conclusion thought: Never knew I looked this good in my opinion and photoshoot rocks! TEEHEE!
Labels: Photoshoot KARMA Wednesday, May 15, 2013 | 0 peterpan(s) Hi, so this is the first thought that I always had and I wanted to pen it down. KARMA. Just what is KARMA? Like why the toilet flush works until your turn, why you like some quirky guys at first sight, why the bus never stops for you, why you are rich, why you are ugly, why you are a Singaporean...basically, KARMA = WHY. As a buddhist, I 've always been curious about what Karma means and how Karma explains our meaning in this life and our afterlife. In laymen terms : Karma means cause and effect ,which means you reap what you sow.
And Buddha's reply was" All living beings have actions (Karma) as their own, their inheritance, their congenital cause, their kinsman, their refuge. It is Karma that differentiates beings into low and high states." Being especially interested, I took up a book with karma stories on it but it turned out to be quite a freaky experience instead. And I got scared quite a bit. There was this story about a farmer who likes to break the legs of these chickens and duck who ate on his crops and until one day where he fell sick and his leg started to rot and it was as though he felt thousands of chicken was pecking on him. When I read it...I could'nt sleep for nights... I kept thinking about the numbers of chicken I have eaten in my life and if they would come for me one day? I even went veggie totally cause I got really freaked out from this. But it did'nt really last for more than a week, cause I cant really stand not eating meat...and I would prolly be only 35kg if I only ate only veggie... but at least you know how haunting the experience was. The reason I started to be involved in Karma was when I realised that I was changing. Cant really explain... but I just felt that I was slowly losing myself... there's this evil side of me that I cannot breakthrough. I remembered when I was younger, I didnt have too much deliberation, I didnt have too much expectations, I just go. Which is why things went pretty well for me, studies, friends, my acting experiences... But I guess as we grow up we start to think a lot more. Thinking about things which are unnecessary, we becomes very hesitant, we start to become more selfish, more greedy, more uncontented. Life was getting so tiring to get by, especially when my skin started to break out and that beautician made it worse and I knew I was scarred for life. It was a very depressing incident of my life I would say. Every night I ask myself why all these things happen to me.. why that beautician... why me. Then I cry myself to sleep. I thought I will go crazy soon if my heart is just filled with so much hatred and anger everyday. To be honest, I even wished that I was dead every morning I woke up. I mean, whats the point when all your hopes and dreams are gone right? You cant even look at anyone in their eyes. And that's when I found Karma. And I really wanna advocate Karma to whoever is reading this. It is the most convenient way of thinking to lead a better life for yourself. My mum knocked some sense into me when I was crying so miserably and she really got enough of my self pity and she scolded me " If you cant change it, accept it and make it better." That's when I thought yeah, maybe I should accept it and make it better. That's totally in line with what Karma has to say. Although Karma is just one of the five roots that makes you what you are, but its enough to impact your life. Why you is because of what you have done, and what you can be is what you do now. Easy as ABC? Haha. Karma goes around and around provided if you believe in afterlife and previous life. Even if you dont, dont you think Karma makes the world a much better place to live in? Read this amazing summary of karma below: When the unexpected happens, the Buddhist realises that he is reaping what he has sown, and he is wiping off a past debt. Instead of resigning himself, leaving everything to Karma, he makes a strenuous effort to pull the weeds and sow useful seeds in their place, for the future is in his own hands.
He who believes in Karma does not condemn even the most corrupt, for they, too, have their chance to reform themselves at any moment. Though bound to suffer in woeful states, they have hope of attaining eternal Peace. By their own doings they have created their own Hells, and by their own doings they can create their own Heavens, too.
With karma, you'll never be upset about unhappy events that happens. With karma, you will start to do good for a better life. With karma, you never look down on the have-nots. So who cares if karma really existed or not, as long as it works right? Cheers to Karma!  Source: http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/karma.htm Labels: Weird thoughts Thoughts about The Final 1 Thursday, May 9, 2013 | 0 peterpan(s)
Yeah. Maybe I didnt make it through but doesnt mean I didnt try my best and with that, I have no regrets. Just wanna thank my many supporters who have voted for me and gave me comforting remarks. They totally made my day and I knew I wasnt doing all these alone. SO JUST A VERY BIG THANKS!
#1 Managing with whats fair and whats not. I know after the 2nd result show everyone has been fanbombing about the show being not fair when its only a contest on popularity and not talent. I do agree to a certain extent that not everyone had a fair start right from the first episode. Many contestants including me were not really featured singing on the first episode and I am being rational cause which random person in the right mind would spam 10 plus bucks on me by just listening to me sing well for that few mins on the second epsiode if they didnt even know who i was in the first episode? (Though maybe i might not have sung that well) And while contestants like had a whole 5mins of air time... others like me only had 5 secs of air time laughing. Honestly, i was really upset because i called everybody to watch me on the first episode thinking that i should start publicising early...but come on..everyone just called me and told me that they didnt see me...or just saw me laughing. And when i started to see other contestants gaining attention and all while i was just left out from this popularity race, I could sort of expect things pretty much. So after a while i sort of adjusted my feelings towards this competition and started to take it with a very light heart. Though many people argued and said that those who got in performed badly, while those who sang well did not make it through, ask yourself if they were given any previous chance to prove themselves in the first episode before they were judged just based on the Top 40 peformances? Perhaps, even though viveck did not perform that well in his Top 40, but people saw his potential in the first episode and voted for him. And I totally feel that he has the potential to be so much better. Though its not fair to say that this is the sole reason, others may include a contestant having a strong fanbase to begin with. I am perfectly fine with that and happy for them because they have worked hard to garner their fan base and they totally deserved the support from their fans! There are actually many more factors to this eg, use of social media, other promotion campaigns,etc. But I tell myself, for this time, I have done my best. I went to back to my school to perform, I promoted myself in class, I emailed and called every contact that I had, and I have never been so insanely involved in social media alongside my hectic school schedule and to study for my exams. So I had no regrets really. Perhaps, what I need to do now is to learn to sing better and come back stronger. But no doubt that every of the contestant deserves to be where they are. Just trying to give a fair view over here okay. So better dont quote me alrights! peace. :) #2. How to be involved in the social media!
I was actually a pretty dead person over the social media, because well got no time for that... and you know once you start...you never stop! You just keep looking at weird videos and pictures...until you dont even whats going on with your life. I never liked a single video or photo cause I was a little sensitive over this type of things and guess now what? I am liking everything like CRAP. I just like when I like. So I am not really thinking. Normally, I used to ignore FB personal message, but now I am making a effort to answer and chat with them lest they think that I am DAO DAO, you know? So very sorry if I used to ignore you guys years back. Paiseh arh and forgive me.
And finally I've LEARNT HOW TO TAG. Challenge accomplished, Thankyou. And now you know what a noob I've been. Yeah, my friends call me boon noob. I was asked to do fan page. The lazy me didnt want to set up another account so I converted my personal account to Fan page and I GOT A SHOCK OF MY LIFE. All my friends were gone... my profile... my everything... I was like crap... this is awesome. What now. Then I spent the whole night figuring out how to restore my personal account until I got so fed up I ended up crying so horribly in front of the computer and I kept mumbling" I want my account back...". In the end... and I had to send a personal email to Facebook asking them to give me back my personal account and I had to wait for one day. So much for social media. And then, I created my first twitter account and I had to change my smartphone from a HTC cha cha phone to a Samsung Note 2 so that I could my have an instagram account. Twitter was ubber confusing to me I swear. What's with all the retweets and hashtag man? I am no fan of twitter seriously... sounds like you are an insane person talking to yourself about the weather... you waking up in the morning and what you ate for breakfast like you don't say? I started with like 5 followers and I felt like... why am I talking to myself?
Instagram like's another wow. Have to filter this filter that, must pose nice nice shots. Must learn how to do collage, add font...one photo take one hour of editing you serious not? HAHA.
Sudden enlightenment: You must tag. k. awesome. Thats when I learned how to tag. But even tagging comes with a lot of knowledge, eg, which platform to tag to where, what text to write, what hashtag to use. Its still pretty confusing for a noob like me. But I thought if not for the The Final 1, I would be a real dinosaur already.
#3 Meeting great amazing talented singers.
Used to lived in my own world thinking that me sounding like Adele in my bathroom was enough. Like you know, you find your voice super captivating only in the bathroom. I hope they can bring me my bathroom while I sing in there during competitions.When I got into the TOP 60 honestly.. I realised I was horribly wrong. Everyone was like a powerhouse. Everyone 55 of them was shining like a diamond so unique in their own ways. I wanted to be every part of them. Fabulous singers with strong personalities. Some are the crazy ones though like Marc, ( I call him uncle marc), farah, kassandra...and many others..we are all quite wild when we come together.;) If there's a reason I miss leaving this stage, it would be to leave this group of very talented singers.
#4. A fashion lesson
Last but not least, the comment by Ken Lim that left everyone wondering about if " I look too much like an auntie."
Labels: The Final 1. Price Tag Sunday, May 5, 2013 | 0 peterpan(s) So this is one of my favourite song called price tag. I like that upbeat rhythm, the groove and Jessie J. But when I first heard this song... I was like yeah man... its not about the Money Money Money.. I imagined myself looking all swag and cool and I would go like " take your money and leave." Actually, I thought good memories flowed back to me during the times where we were all still small and we didnt understand what was money and how to measure it... like we go $10 is A LOT OF MONEY!!! I always asked my mummy if daddy earns more that $100, and I go like WA !! We are so rich! hehe. This song always makes my happy, no idea why. I think of those days where me and my siblings , just the four of us would hop on the back of my daddy's lorry and helped my daddy give out those flyers in the HDB block by block, just for $10. Yeah, child labour I know. But we didnt really care much. We just like helping our daddy out , sitting on the lorry singing stupid songs where the wind was just blowing and all our hairs got messed up. It was really one those best times in my life. :) Just hope that as we grow up, we'll continue to think like how we used to and Money...is so not important. A lot of things are more important than money. :) Cheers! Labels: My videos. What's in me Tuesday, April 30, 2013 | 0 peterpan(s) But anyways, I thought there are still much benefits from establishing a blog, which I think penning things down is something that is most important for people who like to think and daydream a lot. The very first post would be about me and what this blog is going to be about :
My name is Boon hui lu, because of my unique surname which is called BOON and BOON= GOOD, and also what my classmates have been calling me, I have decided to come up with a nickname called BOONIE. Cool? Oh wells, so just call me boonie if not people just end up calling me Boon Hui instead. Its like' How many times must I tell you boon is my surname not my name huh? ' I am 19 years old and currently studying in NTU accountancy. 4 things I like to do : 1. Think I am always thinking about everything under the sun...stupid things like my point of view as a fish, playing dominos with HDB flats and so on.. I basically dream a lot as well, with an average of around 7 dreams per night which I have no idea why.. I am pretty good at lucid dreaming because of that. ( The state where you know you are dreaming when you are dreaming , its like dreamception and you get to control your dreams, sounds cool right? Took me sometime to learn that). With that, I really have a thing for autism so I like to read books on autism and I work in this Autism-Focused School called the Pathlight School during school breaks to know more about autism and to interact with the kids there. And they are super awesome I tell you that. :) 2. Act
So my first onscreen experience when I was 9 was the movie Homerun, but this time around they sort of came to our school and my teacher recommended me to go for the audition. I had a minor role in there ( the one who stole the female lead's shoe) .
3. Sing
Talking about singing competitions..maybe I am now in the TOP 40 in The Final One, but let me tell you about all my singing competition experiences and you will know how competitive singing competitions are and how I try my best to accept failures and move on from there. My first Singing Competition was in VJC called Musicfest and its something VJC always has every year. While basically I joined the competition for two straight years and I was never once accepted into the grand finals. I remembered the second time I failed I was so so so extremely upset. I cried and cried and cried when I went home.. Seeing some of my choir mates getting the tickets while i got left out just hit me bad. Could still remember when I went home, I told myself that I am never going to join any such competitions anymore, I am never going to sing again because my singing sucks and if I cant even make it in a JC , who am I to let the rest like my singing? That's was really what I thought at that time...I was really devastated i tell you. I really have this problem with stage fright. Its like people say that I am very experienced but when it comes to singing..my pitch goes all over the place when I am nervous. After your performance.. you go like.. why do I sound so different in the bathroom. I sound like Adele in the bathroom you know and you guys should totally hear that..:) but oh wells, I guess singing or your passion is something really hard to stop or abandon just because you got rejected. I guess I really love singing so I decided to come back up and try try try... (pink!) Took me some time to improve on my eye contact, stage presence and pitching..and I thought I really got back stronger each time.. yes! And until my first Singing award came and it was stardust 2012! 
There's a little story behind this actually and it has something to do with Ong Eng Teck (aka ET) who is also TOP 40 in The Final One.Actually I didnt make it to the grand finals initially , as usual.. until ET dropped out cause he was in another competition called Fantasia Academy Sunsilk so I took his place and got second in the finals. I have'nt told him that yet.. but I am going to tell him soon! :)
2012 was a fruitful one with regards to my singing journey...guess on lot of luck was on my side that year, I was unexpectedly chosen to represent Singapore for this Taiwan Singing competition called Hua Ren Xing Guang Da Dao!!! Its like some really fabulous singing competition with a lot of singing monsters there and I could hardly believe it that I 'was going to appear there as well. It felt like a dream, and I've dreamed of it before actually. I always dream literally right? Although I was eliminated from the first round in Taiwan, I thought no regrets man, just gotta work harder!
4. Study Non Geeks please skip this part. Geeky as it sounds... but yeap, I like to study as well. I like to delve deep into subjects and get this feeling of immense satisfaction when I solve some really hard Amath questions which I think only geeks like me will understand. It kinda feels like you are the champion or something when you solve the freaking question when everyone is just like : WTH is this question talking about. And then you start explaining and its like MUAHAHAH, BOW DOWN TO ME. Sorry, got too carried away in my geeky world. :) But basically, getting this feeling is why I like studying. But similarly, studying is like a love hate relationship, when you spent hours but you still cant figure out the F***King ( its freaking, there's 3 asterisks) concept, or formular.. you'll feel like banging the wall cause you just spent 4 hrs doing nothing but think. Another thing about geeks is that they dont like to lose ( or maybe just Singaporeans) , for me.. I study a lot sometime because I get panic attack that the test is going to be very hard and I dont want to fail or just cause when I see my slacker classmate starts to flip her/his books. Geeks get paranoid over little stimulus. But as I grew up, I thought studying isnt just about trying to beat your classmate.. getting the best marks... its about gaining wisdom and knowledge ( but its just too bad that Singapore's Education System has made many into thinking this way). So right now, I like studying because I feel that I could gain more wisdom when I study. And I give tuition now because I don't want to throw my knowledge back to my teachers and I want to teach my student new ways and insights to face Singapore's education system. Sound ambitious right? hehe. Actually, I told myself that I am going to teach accounting if my singing/acting plan fails.. so teaching is like my backup plan you see! Okay, my grades in the open for competitive people who wants to know. And cause only geeks like to tell people about their grades. :) PSLE : 250 O levels : L1R5= 7 A levels: 3 H2 As. HAHA. Thats what I do when I apply for tuition jobs too you see so I am okay in letting people know about my grades, its not like perfect score but its not too bad actually in my opinion since I worked hard for it. :) Other Miscellaneous stuffs about me: 1. I am pretty scarred with my bad complexion, emotionally and literally, which I would talk about it in my next few posts and this incident made me realised a lot of things as well. 2. I have three siblings , I am like no 2. We are all girls, and four girls together give you lots of things ...like bitch fight for clothes, bathroom, computer and everything, screaming, doing petty evil stuffs like off-ing the heater switch. There's a uncanny similarity with regards to our education qualifications: All four of us graduated from Changkat primary school, Anglican High School (one's still inside), the eldest three studied in Victoria Junior college and the eldest two, me and eldest sister are currently in NTU Nanyang business school. Like this flowing culture because me and my sisters are so homogeneous with respect to education, we dont get much of a comparsion between siblings from our parents. Yippee! 3. I believe in one true love.. come on.. know it sounds stupid, but I do believe. So I have stayed single for my nineteen years of life hoping to find my only one right guy, then I can get married! My expectations for my guy is simple: Smart, Geeky and Nice! Smart guys are charismatic, geeks are cute when they do work cause they look so focused, Nice guys dont finish last, they are the first in my list! :) About this Blog: 1. Skincare: cause my bad complexion has caused me much distress and I hope to encourage people to stay strong on this journey. 2. Studying tips : I will share some professional studying tips and my personal experience if possible. feel free to share your tips too yo! If you have any academics problems, feel free to share it. 3. My updates: like what I am doing now, crapping with friends, eating nandos.. whatever, this is pretty general basically. 4. Some weird thoughts: This is definitely very important for me. I need to pen down all my dreams so next time I can be someone great. Just like how the benzene ring was discovered from a dream. oh yeah.. 5. Guys: I don' t know? Maybe we can just have bimbotic talks over them.. since I know that's what they do to us..shall see about that. :) Well, to end it off, I really hope this blog doesnt end up dead... which I am now speculation how it would be one year from now.. So Cheers everybody, there's no need to worry. There's a plan for everyone in this world , have a great week ahead! :) Labels: What's in me. |
